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http://www.jumpcut.com/view?id=E7E29084234111DD872B000423CF3686


Click on above link, it should direct you to a video of our SpecOps trainees under their so-called 'Hell Week'. Now, read the description of the video.

People say that training is cruel? Don't they know that SpecOps people need to be trained like that to enable them to withstand torture when captured by enemies? If you're captured, your torturing will be 5 times worst than this. They are trained like that so that they become accustomed and not easily reveal military secrets. Furthermore, SpecOps are usually the team that will do those missions they call 'black-ops', which means the missions are not authorized by Big G. If you're captured, the G will deny any relation with you and won't help you escape. Thus, you become unwanted person in enemies territory and no country is saying you're their citizen. You think with this condition, the enemies will be a bit easy on you? If you're sitting behind a desk comfortably without knowing what's going on in reality, do not condemn people on what they do best.

I'm proud that our SpecOps especially GGK are trained by SEAL and SAS, which puts them on par with some of the best special operatives in the world.

Full Update

Hi minions. I'm back, and now is the time for full updates.

I had some depressions last month. Condition was one of the most serious I've ever had. Coincidently, I needed to finish my last year's annual leave. So the suffering wasn't that long, because I get to relax my head. Spent some time thinking about myself, work, life, family and so on. I figured that I had not spend some time for myself, it has been work, work and work the past year. Like most people say, all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. I took a total of 8 days off, where it was fully used to recover myself and make some important decisions with regards of my future. What those decisions are, please continue reading..

I am now actively looking for a job. Reasons are that the stress has sometimes become too unbearable. To tell the truth, I don't mind working late at night just to get things going. Hell if somebody says I lie, I'll ask the person to look back what I've gone through the past 1 year. Izma can even testify on that, several times already I stayed until early morning just to get things done. I don't deny that I can be focused on my job and determined to get it finished if I'm required to, but if I decided that I need some rest that really means I need some rest. This, is what my supervisors are currently lacking off in noticing. I can take it if it's one or two times, but when frequently done I'll start to feel dissatisfied. Worse thing is, I started to act like a time bomb. I'll act all innocent and normal, doing my routine job and accepting responsibilities being handed down to me when suddenly BAM!! I send my resignation letter. I like my position now, Senior IT Executive (quite cool to be senior while my friends still struggling as junior exec), but don't expect me to follow whatever being pushed to me. I might follow for a while, and at the same time I'm looking for a way out..

Okay, you guys know that I'm already engaged to Izma last March. Now come the wedding part. Most probably it'll be April, May or June. What I'm sure of is it won't be during school holiday. Maybe on Izma's side it'll be on school holiday, but on my side it definitely won't be. Reason being, my mom doesn't want it to. It'll be too troublesome for her friends to attend, because they'd want to go back to hometown. Not that I'm complaining though, doesn't make big difference to me when it'll be conducted. Some more, she's paying for the 'kenduri' haha. So shut your mouth k-mie and just nod on whatever she says.

On other note, I've already purchased a new digital camera. It's Sony Cybershot T300, bought it just a month after it was launched. Bought it using Izma's Easy Payment facility from SenQ, 0% interest some more wohoo. But then since the stupid AEON Credit Service that provides this scheme is unable to accept CIMB credit card (I'm a sucker for CIMB, yeah), I had to ask my good buddy to lend his card. Thanks to him, I'm now playing with 10 megapixel camera. I'm considering to apply Maybank Petronas VISA card, just in case I need to purchase other things. Oh, my financial status still going on, thank you. I don't keep my credit card balance more than 20 days, most to most it'll be just over a week's time before I pay it off. So don't accuse me to being a credit card freak, hehe. Credit card for me is a liability, not a facility.

I'm now a bit concern about my health. For two weeks straight I went to Taman Tasik Titiwangsa on Sunday and participated in aerobic session conducted by DBKL. Would like to burn off this excess fat all over my body. More importantly, I need to break some sweat to reduce toxin level in my body. Been sitting inside air-conditioned environment on daily basis Monday to Friday, eating unhealthily (Mamak food, sinfully oily), exposed to cigarette's smoke, lacking of exercise, all these contribute to health problems. But now I'm a bit worry with my brain. I am now can easily forget things said to me or tasks that I need to do. Sometimes I can even forget things said to me about 10 minutes ago, which is kinda worrying. I don't know whether this is due to my heavy dependency towards electronic gadget to store memos and tasks to do, eating a lot of fish heads and prawn heads, eating a lot of oily foods or any other reasons. But whatever the reason is, I need to re-train my brain to remember things so that the cells inside don't just die like that. I guess because the cells are not used, they become bored and simply decided to die. Need to use my brain cells from now on.

Lastly, I'm planning to make backpack trip to Taman Negara sometime next year. Most probably after marriage. This is to reduce cost (1 room instead of 2, oh dear God so many things can be done by married couple in 1 room..) and because now I need to save all my money for the marriage. Will have to buy a good backpack then, should be fun travelling with just backpack and nothing else. Plans will be put together latest by March '09.

Okay, that seems like enough update from me. To those who concerned about me during my depression period, thank you for your 'keprihatinan'. I'm back to being k-mie. Thanks also to my Izma. Love you, muacks.

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Fuck you k-mie, being so mushy and all. Is this what 2 weeks' holiday made you?

Obsessive-compulsive Disorder

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric anxiety disorder most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive, distressing, intrusive thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or "rituals") which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

Symptoms inclusive of:

• Perfectly aligning objects at complete, absolute right angles, or aligning objects perfectly parallel etc. This symptom is shared with OCPD and can be confused with this condition unless it is realized that in OCPD it is not stress-related.
• Specific counting systems — e.g., counting in groups of four, arranging objects in groups of three, grouping objects in odd/even numbered groups, etc.
• Strange and chronic worries about certain events such as sleeping, eating, leaving home, etc. without proper items. An example would be one who is unable to fall asleep without a metronome.
• An obsession with numbers (be it in math class, watching TV, or in a room). Some people are obsessed with even numbers and loathe odd numbers (odd numbers cause them a great deal of anxiety and often make the person uncomfortable or even angry) or vice versa.
• Feeling like they are needed to have an exact routine, with minor details.

[Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obsessive-compulsive_disorder]

Back

Didn't realize I close my blog for more than a month. Needed the break, had re-energized and now back to ass-kicking. Will update everything later. In short, it was indeed a nice vacation I had. Last year's annual leave well spent. Ciao.